FRIDAY!!! LONG WEEKEND!!! I got my feelings hurt badly today, but it kept my mind off food, so I can't complain too much, can I? Sometimes you have to find the bright side - and I can usually find one in any situation. I was always the one whom, when someone said "we'll laugh about this some day", was the first to laugh. Of course, it was usually before everyone else saw the humor.

Today, I'm wondering: how often are we truly betrayed by those we think are our friends, and how often is it just misperception? I think we all tend to take things too personally. I saw a great quote once that I can't quite remember correctly, but it went something like this "You wouldn't worry what people thought about you if you knew how little they did". I interpreted that to mean not that people "thought little" of me, just that they really didn't spend much time thinking about me at all. I learned a long time ago not to be so self-conscious because everyone has their own thoughts and distractions. I don't notice if someone has on two different shoes or has a big zit, so I assume others don't either. Of course, I could be wrong. I've been told I am "weird and oblivious", so maybe it's just me. However, I find it hard to believe that people think I notice everything about them - OR care.

I am tired of trying to be thoughtful and nice and having people think I have some hidden agenda. I not only don't notice how often everyone around me does or doesn't do something on a regular basis, I DON'T CARE. I will worry about myself and let everyone else worry about themselves. Their conscious's may allow them to do things I don't do and vice versa. Get over it. I have to live with myself and so do they. If it doesn't bother them, why should it bother me? Who am I to judge? Do I tend to judge sometimes? Sure! I can be petty and complain at times - who doesn't? I just need to work harder on being a better person.

Now, if I can only remember to practice what I'm preaching...

Good night!